"The Mind Holds The Future,

 the past, and the present," - sle.  Got exams ready.  One went to the Testing Center.  That went well.  So far, a nice day.  Sweet Pea.  She was something else last night.  Playing with Rosie on the bed.  With Chance a little, but mostly Rosie, twerking on Sweet Pea's leg.  Rosie is so bad.  Watched series on the Ottoman Empire in its conquest of Constantinople, by Mehmed the Conqueror.  It was six episodes.  Interesting.  Never thought of nor read much about the Ottoman Empire.  Little about it in WWI, at its decline.  Been a couple of days of non-writing, I think.  Lost track of time.  Have gotten away from writing every day.  Watching end of The Gray Man.  Did discover yesterday what I hate the most in the world: ignorance.  The trash and her are both hung up on people thinking they are stupid.  I realized they ain't stupid, they are ignorant.  There is a diffference.  Have learned there really isn't any meaning to life.  Life is basically survival.  No more.  But will keep the wheels turning.  Feel so much better having decided to just walk away from the property and home.  And, in a way, from Sweet Pea.  But, time for her to fly with her and trash.  The trash isn't the worse person, but as I said, he is ignorant.  Doesn't know better.  Still living his youth and not growing as a person.  Reason I think of him as trash, that and the fact he has no respect for anyone.  His only true interest is himself.  The trash truly thinks Janet loved him and he couldn't be the furthest from the truth.  She hated him and thought he did drugs.  She thought he was trash, too.  Some kids never, really grow up.  Yet, they think they are.  I never wanted to grow up.  I would have liked remaining a kid.  Still am in many ways.  Time for bed.  Maybe I will start writing more everyday.  I do enjoy it.  Did get the upgrade to Android 13 on my tablet.  I love upgrades on my OS's.  Tomorrow, probably Whole Food and spending up my gift card.  I never fooled myself in thinking she ever loved me as much as she loved her second husband, Hoot.  Not sure if the was the second or third, haha.  Doesn't matter.  She did love me as a companion.  She needed a companion.  That just was Janet.  The winter, or cold days, can get me down a little easier than the rest of the year, but think I am doing better.  Getting into better and better shape every day.  Not losing weight, but shifting or turning the fat into more muscle.  Not bulky, but shapely, toned.  Anyway, the abs getting better and the stomach pouch flatter.  Good night and God bless!  Could write all night but time to go.  Got my title for tomorrow.