"Stupid Is Unknowing

you're ignorant," - sle.  Has been awhile, about 11 days, since I last wrote.  School and other stuff but, mainly, just trying to reduce stress while dealing with school stuff.  Finished with school this semester except keeping up with the spring schedule some.  Did work on my worksheet for my paystubs for the year.  Out a few dollars but don't know if it my input or the system.  Not the way things are today.  Not enough to worry about but knowing me, will deal with later.  Another reason for no writing, is that, I know no one reads my stuff so what is the big rush.  Plus, I do repeat a lot.  Am thinking about finishing my Kindle Vella stories and, then, put together a book.  Will see.  Basically, waiting for the end of the year.  Next year, will begin a new path.  Will try to be patient and make it a smooth transition and, hopefully, a right one.  Can't help Sweet Pea.  Her mom is arrogant, self-centered, and ignorant.  Just her nature.  Immature might be another term.  Just can't rise to be a better person because arrogance, selfishness, and ignorance doesn't allow for it.  Am continuing to become more and more my own person.  Thing, I have lost most of my spiritual feelings.  Don't feel and see my Guardian Angels much anymore, nor others, like mom, Janet, dad, Phillip, thinking of my sister now, Stacey and my brother, Gary.  Anyway, not seeing images much anymore.  Not completely gone are the thoughts and feelings, but very minimal, now.  Time for a refill of hot chocolate.  Trying to think of the movies I have seen: Zulu is one that stands out.  My mind keeps soaking things in and whirling them around with the other stuff in my wash tub.  Back in a second.  Saw a documentary series, 8 episodes, Ancient Apocalypse, about ancient civilizations.  Very eye opening and adds to one's thinking.  Not just so much what happened to the people, how they lived, fed and clothed themselves, went to the toilet, but did they have a purpose or reason on the grand scheme of things.  Is there a grand scheme of things?  What is even more amazing, though many had a lot of similarities, there were a lot of differences, especially in their structures.  Most, I never heard of before.  The one which was underground in Turkey was amazing.  Especially, since there were dozens of other locations similar nearby.  Then, the one mound in Ohio made like a snake.  Anyway, is there any purpose or meaning in life.  Beginning to see there is none of a physical nature.  It has to be of a spiritual nature.  What is spirit?  Still thinking and putting more clothes in the tub.  Bad weather here, why not at school at a social event for students or having my other 'hot' chocolate elsewhere.  The most difficult part here is waiting.  Gotten use to the fact I will be losing Sweet Pea, but after seeing all the lost civilizations there were, I kinda realize that is what life is about: winning and losing.  Love seeing Sweet Pea growing.  Seems so fast.  But anticipating my new part.  Do we live here on Earth from lifetime to lifetime until our spirit grows and advances to another level, God's Spirit World.  Is it the same as Heaven?  I don't think so.  One day will find out.  Haha.  Tomorrow is suppose to be better.  We will see.  Amazing how people can be so unappreciative of people that are helping them.  Worse, they thing you are suppose to and you are suppose to feel good about it.  How they can justify it is amazing.  Well, time to end.  Maybe look into setting up my Kindle writings on my tablet.  Only have about four episodes left, I believe.  Guess one of them is different in my thinking and from anything I have read or seen before.  Did I hit a road block?  Will find out, I guess.  Love the challenge.  Yesterday, had reports to do for school today.  Anyway, took a little creativeness, but got them done and turned in last night.  Have to check on Ozempic to see if there is still a shortage.  Trulicity is OK, but don't really know if it is helping.  Getting into better shape with my health drink in the morning and my exercises.  Getting abs and stomach pouch getting smaller.  Eating some junk food here and there, but mostly carbs without much physical substance.  Easilier on the digestive system.  Next year, if I can find something for the feet, will have to start somewhere at a gym.  Would love to play basketball, again.  Guess it is time to say bye and, hope, your weather is better.  Take care and be safe.  Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year!  God bless!