"The Kingdom Is the Temples,

temples are the people," - sle.  Finished Mary Magdalene.  Loved Joaquin Phoenix.  Nice movie.  Trying to base the heading on it.  Watching the colorized WWII episodes from yesterday.  Current one is the Battle of the Bulge.  The one on Stalingrad was interesting.  Normandy was pretty good today.  Boo is back from karate and on YouTube.  She is something else.    Talking about Hitler.  On drugs and went more nuts after the assassination attempt.  Battle of the Bulge wasn't too bright.  Back to the heading title.  Talking about Patton now.  He is a hero and a character. Loved reading about him.  Malmedy and Dresden, names forgotten in history.  Read a little about Angel numbers.  Went and paid some on one of my credit cards and the new available was $666.  Haha.  God is a funny man.  The bombing of Dresden was a living hell and for no military reason for being bombed.  Is the bombing of any city justified?  Is any war justified?  Firestorm.  Pure hell.  Melted people!  When will people learn they, the individuals are the temples of His Kingdom?  Ending tonight on TV.  Next episode is about a concentration camp.  Maybe tomorrow night.  Sweet Pea.  How can you not fight for a home for her?  But, realized I am stronger and more independent than before.  The feeling of being alone isn't there anymore.  The demons are gone and I am slowly growing stronger and stronger.  I will do my best for Sweet Pea.  That is all I can do.  Sad, that someone that claims she doesn't like being lied to and always blamed me for being a liar, can't stand up to the one that was proven to be a liar.  Janet and her always thought that I cheated on Janet.  Never did.  Think something I got from my father, loyalty.  He never cheated on my mom.  Anyway, guess I just feel so bad for Sweet Pea, but guess I have learned to accept it.  People that miss the real treasures in life for cheap thrills, amuzement, giggles, and stupidness.  Then, think they are so bright when they are in fact just silly.  Little silliness is OK, but to make it your life's biggest moments.  I don't get it.  Sweet Pea thanking me for a gift from her fairy godmother was worth all the silly sh*t the creep comes up with.  Temporary tattoes.  She loves making tattoes, for now.  Just the pleasure she knows someone is there for her unconditionally.  She did have so much fun with her friends.  The girls are really good kids.  Class tomorrow and a division meeting Thursday.  Toe tomorrow night, I think.  Well,  good night.  Tomorrow.  Slept OK.  Filled dog food container.  It goes quick.  Exercises.  News.  Now, breakfast.  Then, off to work.  Not no rock hard abs, but getting some.  Belly pouch is still there, but smaller.  If I ever get serious, should get even better.  Sweet Pea still has her cough.  She just doesn't quite eat right and not sure if she gets the right vitamins.  She is something else.  Just waiting.  Don't think things will work out smoothly with the house and property, but there are some other options available.  All just a matter of time.  When do some people grow up?  If it wasn't for Sweet Pea, I would just let them pay the bill and get out of here.  But, still gotta try to save it for her.  Sadly, her mother doesn't feel the same way.  She wants but doesn't want to earn it.  Doesn't want to be what she can be.  Wants to remain a kid.  So dependent on others and wanting friends.  Part of that BS crowd.  Saw today that 11/02 was mine and Janet's anniversary.  Did forget with all the sh*t going on around here.  Her photo still speaks to me sometimes.  Think she has forgotten her mother.  Hell, she forgot her when she was alive.  She preferred the crappy and trashy people over her mother.  She always did.  The pains and suffering she gave her mother.  But never stopped to think about it.  Just didn't care, though she played like she did.  How do you worry about stealing something from someone on their death bed while they are trying to survive and fight for life?  Are steal from someone, period.  Well, time to finish.  Later.  Ride to work was nice.  Great weather.  Some school emails to deal with.  Little snack before class.  Human skin making lamp shades.  Watching the Nazi German concentration camps episode.  What has the world learned?  Buchenwald.  Next, Hiroshima and Nagasaki.  Some photos and videos never seen before by me.  Now, Age of Samurai, Battle for Japan.  Boo on computer.  The waiting.  Looks good for keeping the property and house, but think I will just try to save some money and start somewhere else.  Getting more able to stand alone.  More able to go find someone.  Oh, Hubig's pies are back.  Love them.  But will take awhile to get out of New Orleans and the North Shore.  May have to make a special run one day to get some in a few weeks.  The waiting game,  Ugh.  Tried  something different tonight.  First low sugar in a long time.  Live and learn, sometimes.  Doing good now.  Sweet Pea.  So wonderful tonight talking with her mom.  I don't listen too closely, but just hearing her voice and how nice and sweet it sounds.  She comes out to the fridge and I pretend there is a ghost and call for Chance from the living room.  We have our fun.  Well, tomorrow is mom's birthday and I am going to try to enjoy it for her though I do have a division meeting.  Good night.  God bless.  Tomorrow.  Nice morning.  Mr. Kenny is just talking.  Exercises. Chance has been fed and outside.  Sweet Pea still have that little cough.  Mom's birthday.  Going to enjoy it for her.  Division meeting later.  Getting ready to finish breakfast and start the day.  Weather seems great.  Do have a nice day and take care.  God bless.