"To be better and more vs.

being the same or worse are told by actions," - sle.  Gladiator to end the night.  Russell Crowe is great in it, but so is Joaquin Phoenix.  Great cast.  Hope to end it at 11 and call it a night.  Think the protein drink at night is helping.  Might try to do some house stuff to end the night, but probably not.  Study history.  You will see that man hasn't changed over time.  Neither has the value of life.  The swords and weapons are just a little different.  Do have to wash my hair before calling it a night.  Do love my long hair.  Well, getting long.  What is true valor?  So little of it today, sadly.  Taking life is easy.  Advancing life isn't.  Thinking about it, a good point of being a teacher.  Well, depends upon the teacher.  Guess I have done some good from some writings of my students.  Time to go wash my hair.  Guess the only time I will find true peace is after my last breath.  I was toss into the ring and there is no way out except with a key.  "Rome is the light."  Is Heaven the light?  Man hasn't figured out, is that, he carries the light.  Note, he is not capitalized.  Man carries the light.  God awaits it.  Will man ever evolve the light to God?  Doubt it.  Oh, it doesn't take much to wash my hair, except the little balancing and leaning over from outside the shower to inside the shower.  Haha.  Gets the job done.  Tomorrow.  Slept well, except for a little acid in the stomach at 2:00 or so.  Sweet Pea.  Felt this morning like I was visiting my grandma.  Like a stale or sterile smell.  Anyway, guess trying to tell me it is time to leave.  Beautiful morning.  A couple of contrails crossing in the blue sky.  Some logging operations going on in the distance.  There are some logging lands nearby.  It was nice.  Is some beautiful land.  Just thought Sweet Pea does deserve a loving home.  No, not the BS kind.  One with feelings.  With actual true feeling love.  Not a love of doing it because I have to, or trying to BS someone to get into their pant.  Or, she is family.  But, there isn't really much true feelings arounds here.  A lot of BS, but no feelings.  How sad.  All the childish giggling can't create feelings.  Almostt time for the foot doctor.  Hoping.  Diabetes guy tomorrow.  Might start back eating to lose weight.  Am getting into better shape, but know I need to get a few pounds off and trim up a little more, again.  "You are alert to the events and feelings around you." Not too sure about that, but the Chinese waitress gave me a few seconds of eye contact before I left.  Starting tomorrow.  Was born on a Wednesday, so will be re:born again on Wednesday.  Haha.  Toe still not quite healed up.  Got a new boot-shoe thing with a big padded insert, then you can pop parts out of the pad.  Neat.  Nice cushion, but got to get use to it.  Rides high in the saddle, haha.  Been feeling Janet a lot today.  She told me she felt sorry for me.  She don't know how I held out so long.  Then, told me she loved me in her own way.  Couple of minutes later Hoot was behind her.  They were happy.  I did realize today just how physical the world really is, how lacking of spirit people and things are.  Motions flowing through life.  Well, I did start on a new poem, or writing.  Will start putting it together and finishing it after this sitting, checking emails, and news.  Got Siri's repeating of what I say turned off.  Seems weird.  Will have to turn it back on.  Feelings, spirits, how do they relate?  Do enjoy these energy drinks.  God bless, Loretta Lynn, RIP.  Think tattoos would look better on canvas.  Beware!  Fentany in candy-colored pills in children's toy boxes.  Like razor blades in candy, but worse.  The Outlaw Joey Wales vs. The Book of Eli.  Went with Eli.  Doing my writing.  How do you not show interest in your child, even if you have to fake it.  Bastards are bastards.  Nature of the beast.  Phony and full of SH.  Dogs, rest stop, snack, back to movie and writing, maybe some home keeping stuff, haha.  Finished my writing.  The end of the movie, now.  Funny in a way.  Satisfying in another.  Don't ask me to explain my writing.  I assure you I basically come up with the title and a beginning line or two.  Flows from there.  Where is goes, I know not.  Truly.  I just try to tie it all together.  Maybe Outlaw Joey Wales, now.  Good night and God bless.  Tomorrow, diabetes doctor.  Found a place to put it, the writing.  More to come, maybe?  "I kept the faith," Denzel Washington.

      Butterfly in Winter

The icy winds cut him so deep,
Yet their wounds he felt not.
Excruciating throbbing of his
Broken heart took his mind
Into lands of tormenting flames
And eternal burns, roasted skin.
Frozen tears of his lost soul.

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